I'm the only girl alive in LA county I'm the only one who sees (ayy) I wake up every day in some new kind of suffering I've never known a day of peace I wonder if I ever left behind my body (ooh) Do you think they'd laugh at how I died? Or take a photo of my family in the lobby The ceremony's small inside 'Cause I don't know if I could sell out my own funeral (ah-ah) At least, not at this point in time And if I ever try to leave behind my body (If I ever try) Well, at least I know it was never mine, it was never mine It was never mine It was never mine I'm the only girl alive in New York City I left my wallet on the train Since I no longer even have a driver's license I guess that means I have no name (this is.. Halsey Street) And I could run away to somewhere on the west coast And finally be a real-life girl They'll take my organs and they'll hang me from a bedpost Sayin' I was too soft for this world And they'd be right, because quite frankly, to be alive It shoudln't kill me every day, the way it does I don't know what I did to have this fate I'm drenched in it And I can't even run from what I know My special talent isn't writing, it's not singing It's feeling everything that everyone alive feels every day Feels every day, feels every day, feels every day I think I'm special 'cause I cut myself wide open As if it's honorable to bleed But I'm not lucky, and I know I was not chosen The world keep spinnin' without me I told my mother I would die by twenty-seven And in a way I sort of did This thing I love has grown, demanding and obsessive And it wants more than I can give, than I can give, than I can give Than I can give I'm the only girl alive in LA county I've never known a day of peace I wake up every day, wish that I was different I look around and it's just me It's just me, it's just me Ah-ah, ah-ah-ah Ooh, ayy Wee-ooh, wee-ooh, yeah-yeah